Monthly Archives: November 2013

It’s beginning to look a lot like…

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Thanksgiving is almost over. We didn’t have turkey. As Thanksgiving is at Mom’s house and she’s decided that cooking a turkey for 3 people isn’t much fun, and because it’s her house. we had lobster tails, King Crab legs, regular shrimp and coconut shrimp. Don’t get me wrong, it was good – how could it not be? – but I missed the turkey and sweet potatoes and green bean casserole, etc. We had pumpkin pie cause I made one. Well I made 4. Three for work and one for us. I kept half of the pie and left the other half with Mom and Cindy.

Then Mom and I sat down and talked genealogy. We have a very large family and the more I find out, the bigger it gets. I’ve found a Civil War soldier and two WWI soldiers. I found an illegitimate family member, who was eventually adopted by his grandparents. (His mother was a bit of a jet setter and, for that time in history, she was married an incredible 3 times (at least) and traveled a lot. Lost track of her in 1940 on a steamship to Venezuela.) Most families in the late 1800s, early 1900s had very large families. We’re talking 10 to 17 kids. (One family had 17 kids, but only 12 survived childhood.) After the genealogy talks, my sister sat down and outlined her plans for, not only their house, but for decorating my house. Thanks but no thanks. Money is too tight. I will put up my tree and a few other Christmas decorations, but I can’t afford to light up the outside of the house. (Note to self – put squirt bottle on grocery list. Meow-Yen will try to climb the Christmas tree.) My sister will start decorating tomorrow morning. She can’t wait. I’ll start dragging the tree and stuff into the house from the garage maybe tomorrow, maybe Saturday, or maybe not… It’s hard for me to do… Maybe I can get Cindy to help bring it in, as long as I can figure out where to put it…

And therein lies the problem. With the arthritis in my knee and the new pains in my left shoulder, moving heavy boxes is out of the question. Especially up stairs…

I really do want to have my tree up, at least. I just wish it didn’t hurt so much to move things around…

So, on to try number 2

I got my letter from Social Security Disability. And I was denied. So I get to start again. Evidently, being denied the first time is “normal”. Doesn’t help. Today was a bad day. I thank God for getting me through the day. I hurt in so many places that walking out to my car this morning was an ordeal. I get really tired of hearing that Osteoarthritis isn’t as bad as rheumatoid arthritis. From my point of view, both hurt when the weather turns icky. And we’ve got a storm with the possibility of rain/snow coming in. Barometer is falling rather quickly. Knees hurt, hips hurt, back hurts, shoulders hurt.

I also have RLS – Restless Leg Syndrome. And it’s going to town right now. Leg muscles twitch and jerk and tingle. While it’s not painful, it is annoying as hell. Makes it nearly impossible to find a comfortable position and with the knees hurting, walking it off is not something I really want to do.

I have asthma, which has gotten worse since I moved. So I moved from a big city, Denver, to a small, rural community, Lamar. Lamar, don’t misunderstand, I love Lamar, it is my home town, is situated on the High Plains of Colorado. Southeastern Colorado. Smack dab in the middle of Colorado’s worse drought area. We’ve got a lot of rain, for the area, this year – close to 7 inches. So you can do the math. When the wind blows, so does the dust. And the wind blows – a lot. There’s a joke down here – depending on which way the wind is blowing, that goes – Kansas sucks and Oklahoma blows, or Oklahoma sucks and Kansas blows. Nothing against either one of those states really, just the way the wind blows.

So to get back on topic – Evidently, I am not disabled enough. Yes, SS says, I am partially disabled. Yes, there is damage to my knees and my lungs aren’t working as they should. Yes, I can no longer do work that requires any long distance walking, any standing for extended periods of time and can no longer lift heavy loads, I can still work. All I have ever done in my life is retail, which includes all of the above. Don’t know if I can do anything else, so I’ll keep trying to get my Disability. Took me 6 months to get the first denial. Here’s hoping it doesn’t take that long for the next try…

This is the week that was…

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Actually, this has been two weeks that was, er, um, were,… Oh well, you know.

Went to my Doctor two weeks ago and had some blood work done. My A1c was 9.4. Wow. It’s been 4 or 5 for years. Then I thought that maybe because October was such a stressful month, and I do tend to emotionally eat, maybe that was the problem. When they did a blood sugar test in the office, my blood sugar was 277. I was very surprised and a little worried so when the Doctor gave me a prescription for a very high dosage of Metforman, I was sure that would solve the problem, even though I was a little unsure of the high amount. After a week of absolutely no drop in blood sugar, I started wondering. Maybe there was something else that was causing the rise in my blood sugar. (And yes, I did all the things one is suppose to do – no white foods; no bread, no milk, no salt, no sugar, no pasta, etc.) I even tried to reduce my stress level. (Not so successful there, still have stressful issues in my life that I’m trying to deal with.) I started doing the research I should have done in the beginning. After searching through several websites and reading several articles (didn’t know there was so much out there regarding blood sugar increases), I found several studies that have shown that there are several things, other than “sugar” that raise the blood sugar levels. Diuretics can raise blood sugar (I’m on diuretics), Asthma inhalants can raise blood sugars (I’m on corticore steroids), some decongestants and antihistamines can raise blood sugar levels (I take antihistamines for seasonal allergies), Glucosamine will raise blood sugar levels (I take Osteo Bi-Flex for my Osteo Arthritis). Stress can also raise blood sugar levels. There were at least 10 other items that raise blood sugar levels. Hum.

So that brings on other questions. How do I lower my blood sugar? Do I stop taking most of the meds I’ve been prescribed by my Doctor, or do I go to a high level of Metformin to lower my blood sugar? So many questions for my Doctor on Monday.

Next, I’m getting a lot of pressure from several different people about getting some sort of health insurance. Really? Have you met my budget? There is less than no room to budge in my budget. With my hours being cut for the rest of the year, at the very least, I can’t afford insurance. So finally someone hit on Medicaid. Seems I might qualify for that. So I need to see about that on Monday. I also have to see about withdrawing some money from my IRA to cover my rent for December… *sigh*

And I thought October was difficult…

Well, crap…

Ever have one of those days? How about one of those weeks? Month? How about year?

Lately it seems as though things are just going wrong, or weird, to spite me. I’m beginning to think that “Murphy” is hiding in my house/life.

Everybody knows about the leaking roof, that has, to date, been patched but not fixed. Haven’t seen hide nor hair of the guys since then. My land lady is checking to see what’s up, but personally, I think it’s getting a little late in the season to do any roofing. I still can’t go into my utility room. And now everybody is using the “c” word – condemned – for my house. I am so not leaving this house voluntarily, or even peacefully. I’m tired of hearing about it.

Then I made a trip to Pueblo (252 miles round trip) for a Social Security Disability medical exam. Still haven’t heard anything on that. Although a good friend of mine finally got her Disability. I’m so glad. I can stop worrying about her now. Which is funny cause she’s been worrying about me. Awww.

Then we got our hours cut at work. Started this week. I can only work 4 days a week. I’m still very annoyed about this. It’s going to make paying my rent and bills all that much harder, even if, as the rumor mill at work says, its temporary, it still doesn’t make the mean time easier to get through.

And now for today. Had a Dr.’s appointment today. Not a good appointment. Seems I am officially diabetic. My blood sugar was 265. I so know that’s bad. So now, I have to completely change my diet. And I just bought groceries. And most of the stuff I bought I can’t/aren’t suppose to eat anymore. Oh yea. I’m now on the No White Diet. No salt, no sugar, no milk, no bread, no rice, no pasta, no potatoes, no soda pop, etc. Well, crap.

I know there are good things in my life, for which I am always and endlessly grateful, it just seems that, right now, the things that happening are not very fun things. It’s a good thing I’m finding things every day to be thankful for…

Oh well, sorry this is a little down. I’m just a little down right now…